First off, I will say hi to the Wife, MIL and anyone else with whom this blog has been shared.
Yesterday I was prompted to turn to Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowlegde him, and he shall direct thy paths. My faith in God doth not waver. Life will go on. I believe that everything happens for a reason. I contintued reading and could not believe how much these words spoke to me.
Proverbs 5:18-19 Let thy fountain be blessed:and rejoice with the wife of they youth. Let her be as the loving hind and pleasant roe;let her breasts satisfy thee at all times;and be thou ravished always with her love. I am totally not making that up. It is in the Bible, let her breats satisfy thee. Holy cow! But, I continued and reciveved my reprove Proverbs 6:12, 14-15 and 16-19: A naughty person, a wicked man, walketh with a froward mouth. Frowardness is in his heart, he deviseth mischief continually; he soweth discord. Therefore shall his calamity come suddenly; suddenly shall he be broken without remedy. I am clearly a naughty person, into mischief, and causing discord. My calamity came suddenly, I am broken, but without remedy? That does not offer the hope that I want to feel.
But we continue 16-19 These six things doth the LORD hate: yea, seven are an abomination unto him: A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief, A false witness that speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren. I can say that I have not shed innocent blood, but that's about it. I let my heart devise the wicked imagination that I could somehow be happy without her.
I don't know where things are going. I know that my wife loves me, and that I do not deserve that love. I need to learn to love her more. The road is long. I never meant to hurt her, I only want her to be happy. I have hurt her deeply, for that, I am truly sorry.
Thank you for your thoughts and prayers thus far and continuing as we work through this.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
4 comments:
Glad to see you are still with us. I hope things work out well for you. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts.
Don't you love it when something written thousands of years ago applies to you.
I pray things work out for the best for you in this. I know its tough, but it'll be worth it
Again, send her my way. Lots of us have done this, and continue to do it every day. Keep going! Hang in there!
Glad things seem to be working hard -- I'm sure there is a long road ahead of both of you -- but honesty has to be a good start.
Post a Comment